Thursday, 24 April 2014

End of a chapter

With Ah Ma passing, it signals the end of a chapter

A chapter for mum, as she no longer has a tie to the family. She is a great woman, making arrangements, doing visits, showing sincere concern for Ah Ma for many years even though she doesn't need to. Now I hope she can break clean and live her own life carefree. I believe she can. She is very strong mentally. Looking at how the others her Gen in Ah Ma side had aged, she looks so much more energetic, full of zest and in fact looked young. Its really a testament of her strength and will for all to see. Proud of you mum.

Gave dad a pat on his arm on the bus when walking pass, don't know why, but just want to give him a pat to show him I want him to not be so sad. I didn't want to talk to him. Nothing to say. I don't hate him. He made his choice and we made ours. I sincerely wish him good health and happiness. Our paths may or may not cross again. It doesn't really matter to me. As one of the uncles told me.."take good care of your mum". That's the most sensible thing someone told me during these few days. He is right, me and my sisters duty is to our mum only. That's why I don't want to talk to him, don't want to give the window of chance that he might come into our present lives and complicate matters. We are doing well and don't need to take this risk of hurting our mum. Not easy decision, but between him and mum, no question about my choice, and I'll stand by it regardless what happens in future. That's the price of betrayal. Its a life lesson for me.

It is a closure at last.

Again. RIP Ah Ma. Don't worry about us. We will take care.

Beginning of a new chapter!!!

RIP ah ma

She passed on 19 April 2014 , age 91


RIP ah ma

I won't forget how you doted on me (well, it is kind of favoritism). Still it was a privilege.
The old generation treats the first grandson from first son as their youngest son, so that's probably why.

Somehow, the memory of staying over at her 1 bedder in ChaiChee never goes away. I guess it was a pleasant feeling, so it stays.

Still, its been over 20 years since the drift happened. So maybe the pain wasn't so much because of it.

Still, your passing brings new perspective for myself. As children, we must be filial to our parents. I heard how she was alone at her last breath. Well, she was already probably sick for a long time, so perhaps I should not judge like what Brenda said, as taking care of her would probably be a huge strain to her children. But still, being alone at your last when your loved ones are actually around somewhere...it is kind of heartbreaking.

Well, at least all your children, grandchildren are here for the final rites and send off. It is a huge family, something you can be proud of. Your legacy. No one can take this from you.

So, rest in peace Ah Ma. We will all live well forward. Don't worry about anything anymore.

Love you

Thursday, 17 April 2014

ST test drive

Tested the focus ST today
250bhp, 2.0 turbo. 6speed MT
One word...SHIOK

The car can accelerate at low speed when in 4th gear. OMG

Quoted 155k for demo unit which is white. Pretty color, but wonder how many time ms it was trashed around.
159k for brand new black.

Wednesday, 2 April 2014

Blessed

Blessed is when you are presented the opportunity to love your children