Thursday, 24 April 2014

End of a chapter

With Ah Ma passing, it signals the end of a chapter

A chapter for mum, as she no longer has a tie to the family. She is a great woman, making arrangements, doing visits, showing sincere concern for Ah Ma for many years even though she doesn't need to. Now I hope she can break clean and live her own life carefree. I believe she can. She is very strong mentally. Looking at how the others her Gen in Ah Ma side had aged, she looks so much more energetic, full of zest and in fact looked young. Its really a testament of her strength and will for all to see. Proud of you mum.

Gave dad a pat on his arm on the bus when walking pass, don't know why, but just want to give him a pat to show him I want him to not be so sad. I didn't want to talk to him. Nothing to say. I don't hate him. He made his choice and we made ours. I sincerely wish him good health and happiness. Our paths may or may not cross again. It doesn't really matter to me. As one of the uncles told me.."take good care of your mum". That's the most sensible thing someone told me during these few days. He is right, me and my sisters duty is to our mum only. That's why I don't want to talk to him, don't want to give the window of chance that he might come into our present lives and complicate matters. We are doing well and don't need to take this risk of hurting our mum. Not easy decision, but between him and mum, no question about my choice, and I'll stand by it regardless what happens in future. That's the price of betrayal. Its a life lesson for me.

It is a closure at last.

Again. RIP Ah Ma. Don't worry about us. We will take care.

Beginning of a new chapter!!!

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